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Almost ten years ago I had a revelation. It was more like a moment. It still rests in my heart.

It was a different life and I was in a different place, but the quality of the moment feels timeless.

I was on a plane flying from Edmonton to Toronto. It was late fall, maybe early winter and the plane was virtually empty. It was one of those planes that has three columns of chairs, a few seats on each side of the plane, and a large column of five seats or so in the middle.

It was the middle of the night.

Just the way I like it.

I was fleeing my old life, an impossibly laissez-faire life in Edmonton of philosophical coffee shop babble, guitar playing and singing, chess and many friendly encounters. I was destined for a very difficult situation in Toronto that involved life altering decisions and responsibilities that could no longer be ignored.

But, it was there, in the middle of the night, maybe somewhere over Lake Superior that I truly felt an archetypical embrace… the conjunction that exists inside me.

I have a Moon and Jupiter conjunction in my natal chart.

I was not in one life or the other. Maybe I was in between. But, more importantly: I was in motion. At 10,000 feet I felt a true delight… an inner peace that I’ve only felt at odd times (e.g., trying tai chi, going to a native sweat, etc.)… I felt free!

What an amazing feeling! To my left, and to my right was open sky. I outstretched my arms as if to reach both. Looked up, with my eyes closed and opened my mouth as though to devour the heavens. This was my exalted emotional state. The home to that well deep within. Nothing and no-one could touch me there.

As the plane commenced its decent into Toronto I felt my stomach sink. The well began to stir. Gradually the disturbance returned. When the plane landed it was not the only thing to touch the ground.

I think of all of this because I’m flying to Toronto on my way to Chicago in two days. While my experience was a lifetime ago, I hope to return to the well. I can’t wait for the exaltation.